There are times in life to think and times not to. Unfortunately my mind doesn’t know the difference. I keep trying to tell myself that, at least for the time being, there is nothing I can do and I should focus on other things. I have lots of other things in my life: life my wonderful husband, my job I like, friends I can make, and others things that I can focus on. However, my mind must be as stubborn as I am because the one thing (adoption and my kids) that I tell it not to think about it thinks about ALL the time.
So for now, I keep reminding myself that God’s plan and timing are greater than mine and that all this love for my kids that is inside almost literally bursting to get out will do my kids great when they get here! Until then I am exhausted each day from the energy it takes NOT to think about it.