Today I have no words. Today we give up for the night and hope for new energy in the morning. Today we found out that although TPR went through, another family was chosen for the two girls from up north. Today we grieve, cry, break down, and mourn the loss of what we imagined. The truth is that we had imagined our lives with these girls and prepared our heart for them, and to be parents. Today I have no more words so I leave you with pictures:
And most fittingly for where I am at right now:
Katie's Adoption and Fitness Journeys 
Sending hugs! I know all too well this road you are traveling. Ride the wave and let your emotions be real. hugs hugs hugs. Let me know if there is anything I can do.
Right now I would love prayers for strength.
I want you to know that I am deeply sorry for your loss and I am praying for you. With a humble heart, I pray that you will allow yourself to grieve, but also allow yourself to be comforted by the One who loves and cares for us all. Accepting comfort does not mean the love was any less true or the loss any less real. His decisions may confuse us, but we can take comfort in His love and wisdom. We can trust that he is working for the good of those who love Him. Do not lean on your own understanding, but trust in the Lord with all your heart. Only He can bring you peace in your storm. I am praying for His strength for you.
You are both in our prayers.
Thank you so much