We got the call today. The call I have been waiting for literally years for! The call that says they picked us!!!! The call that let us know that we are the ONLY family that the sibling groups of 3’s social workers are deciding to move forward with in the adoption process. No more interviews, no more families to meet or look at, they choose us! (Actual message, These are the kids God has been planning for you to have all along!)
I am filled with excitement, overwhelming love for everyone that helped us get to this point and a humble appreciation of the role that God has gratefully allowed me to play in these kids’ lives. Now, we are a little ways from them moving into our house and to be quite honest I have little to no idea what comes next. We have (obviously) never made it this far. What I do know is this: they are not moving forward with any other families, only us. They choose us and want to meet with us Friday to speak more. We cleared our schedules and got ready to open our home to two ladies who are about to sign off on giving us kids!
I would love some feedback from those that have gone before us as to what actually comes next in the process. This is what I know: they want the oldest to start the school year at her old school, they asked us at the first meeting if we were interested in a legal risk placement (TPR trial is this week), and we have had 1 meeting with no paperwork exchanging hands about the details of the kids’ behaviors, just verbal. I hope that gives you an idea as to where we are in the process. They have told us everything and Joel and I are beyond committed to these kids.
I’m going be a mom!!!! I was going to try and wait to post anything about it until friday when I knew more but, come on that just wasn’t going to happen!
I am going to be honest and say that I am experiencing a surprising feeling today, numbness. I am so excited and my heart has been doing jumping jacks (probably to get away from the butterflies in my stomach that were bothering it), but I am also at times sitting on the couch with a blank face, staring at the wall thinking, What the heck? Is this for real? Am I dreaming? Am I really going to be a mom? These are my kids? How on Earth could I be this incredibly blessed? 3 kids, how much laundry is that? Oh my goodness, I can’t wait to see what they look like!
I cycle from excited to planning to day dreaming to numb and back again in a matter of seconds. It all hasn’t really sunk in yet, I wonder when it will.